Monday, December 23, 2013

It's Beginning to Look a Lot Like...

No time to write. You look at pictures. You look at pictures NOW!

Rose ignoring me.



A close-up of our tree.



This is nothing, you should see the house across the street.



From the front porch, with the neighbor's blinding display in the background.


Tuesday, December 17, 2013

Get Up

I've been reading through Corinthians lately and even though I skip around to completely different parts of scripture from one day to the next, it somehow always catches me by surprise when I keep running across passages that seem like they were written specifically to me. A couple of excerpts from my reading this morning:

We are hard pressed on every side, but not crushed; perplexed, but not in despair; persecuted, but not abandoned; struck down, but not destroyed. (2 Cor. 4:8, 9)

After reading that, I immediately think of a song. Do you know "Trading My Sorrows"? If you do, you're gonna have that stuck in your head for a while...

Therefore we do not lose heart. Though outwardly we are wasting away, yet inwardly we are being renewed day by day. For our light and momentary troubles are achieving for us an eternal glory that far outweighs them all. So we fix our eyes not on what is seen, but on what is unseen, since what is seen is temporary, but what is unseen is eternal. (2 Cor. 4:16–18)

Sometimes when I read passages like this, I start to wonder if they were written for me and then I realize that of course this was written for me. God speaks to us through scripture and makes His will known. He knows exactly what we need to hear, exactly when we need to hear it.

It brings to mind a poem that I used to read called "The Race." The words of this poem are also exactly what I needed to hear. And if you're here reading this blog, then you're meant to read this, too.

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“Quit! Give up! You’re beaten!” they shout at me, and plead. 

“There’s just too much against you now, this time you can’t succeed.”

And as I start to hang my head in front of failure’s face, 

My downward fall is broken by the memory of a race. 

And hope refills my weakened will, as I recall that scene, 

For just the thought of that short race rejuvenates my being.

They all lined up so full of hope, each thought to win that race. 

Or tie for first, or if not that, at least take second place. 

And fathers watched from off the side, each cheering for his son, 

And each boy hoped to show his dad, that he would be the one.

The whistle blew, and off they went, young hearts and hopes afire,

To win and be the hero there was each young boy’s desire.

And one boy in particular, whose dad was in the crowd, 

Was running near the head, and thought, “My dad will be so proud!”

But as he speeded down the field, across the shallow dip,
The little boy who thought to win lost his step and slipped.
Trying hard to catch himself, his arm flew out to brace,
And ‘mid the laughter of the crowd, he fell flat on his face.
So, down he fell, and with him, hope. He couldn’t win it now.
Embarrassed, sad, he only wished he’d disappear somehow.

But as he fell, his dad stood up, and showed his anxious face, 

Which to the boy so clearly said, “Get up and win the race.”

He quickly rose, no damage done, behind a bit, that’s all, 

And ran with all his mind and might to make up for his fall.

So anxious to restore himself, to catch up and to win,

His mind went faster than his legs; he slipped and fell again!

He wished then he had quit before with only one disgrace. 

“I’m hopeless as a runner now, I shouldn’t try to race.”

But in the laughing crowd he searched, and found his father’s face,

that steady look that said again, “Get up and win the race!”

So up he jumped to try again, ten yards behind the last, 

“If I’m to gain those yards,” he thought, “I’ve got to move real fast.”

Exceeding everything he had he gained back eight or ten, 

But trying so to catch the lead, he slipped and fell again.

Defeat! He lay there silently, a tear dropped from his eye. 

“There is no sense in running more. Three strikes, I’m out, why try?”

The will to rise had disappeared, all hope had fled away. 

So far behind, so error prone, a loser all the way.

“I’ve lost, so what’s the use,” he thought, “I’ll live with my disgrace.” 

But then he thought about his dad, who soon he’d have to face.

“Get up!” an echo sounded low, “Get up, and take your place. 

You were not meant for failure here, get up and win the race.”

“With borrowed will get up,” it said, “You have not lost at all.

For winning is no more than this: to rise each time you fall.”

So up he rose to run once more, and with a new commit, 

He resolved that win or lose, at least he wouldn’t quit.

So far behind the others now, the most he’d ever been, 

Still he gave it all he had, and ran as though to win.

Three times he’d fallen stumbling, three times he’d rose again, 

Too far behind to hope to win he still ran to the end. 

They cheered the winning runner, as he crossed the line first place.

Head high and proud and happy, no falling, no disgrace.

But when the fallen youngster crossed the finish line last place,

The crowd gave him the greater cheer for finishing the race.

And even though he came in last, with head bowed low, unproud, 

You would have thought he won the race to listen to the crowd.

And to his dad, he sadly said, “I didn’t do so well.”

“To me you won!” his father said, “You rose each time you fell.”

And when things seem dark and hard, and difficult to face,

The memory of that little boy helps me to win my race. 

For all of life is like that race, with ups and downs and all, 

And all you have to do to win is rise each time you fall.

“Quit! Give up! You’re beaten!” they still shout in my face. 

But another voice within me says: “GET UP AND WIN THE RACE!”

– D.H. Groberg

Monday, December 16, 2013

Huh?

I walked past the stairway on my way to the kitchen and saw a Barbie lying in a contorted heap on the floor at the foot of the steps. I paused and looked up and Emily was standing at the top of the stairs. "She fell," she said and her eyes narrowed as she stared me down. I walked quickly away, not wanting to acknowledge it. It's none of my business, right?

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Rose: "I asked my friend Charlotte what a TTY phone is, but I guess she didn't hear me."

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There's your funny for the day. You're welcome.

Wednesday, December 11, 2013

Hey, Look Where You're Going

It's funny how a sudden gust of cold wind, or an old building, the smell of smoke, the sunlight reflecting across the rooftops, the rattle of some dead leaves, the faint sound of a familiar tune drifting from a passing car, the taste when you bite your lip, the random sidewalk that detours around an old tree, passing the spot where a house used to be, seeing lights and shapes through dirty windows, or finding an old forgotten to-do list in your pocket can prompt a sudden rush of a million lights and sounds and memories of people and places and doors that you've walked through. All those fragments and sound bites become colored with age and each time you replay them they get a little bit better and take on a life of their own so that after a while those moments blend fact with fiction and you no longer know or care if your mind is taking creative liberties with the past. They become fond mental stories that get bigger and more nostalgic each time they are played back and for some reason they live out an elusive fairy-tale sort of existence... each time you reach out for them, they disappear like a puff of smoke. And yet when you aren't expecting them, there they are, waiting around the next corner.

Am I getting old? NO! Of course not. And when I'm 80 I'll still say the same thing. But I do believe that good memories are an important thing to hang onto and should be valued. Dwelling on them too much is a bad thing, but letting them happen across your path every now and then is good. You have to live in the present, but remembering the past and carrying some of the good things along – that in part make up who you are – is not a bad idea.


Here I go getting sentimental again, but isn't that the name of the blog, anyway? Every year around this time I start looking back and I see the good times and the bad, but I mostly try to remember the good. And as a new year gets closer, I look forward to all the great times it will bring and I can't wait to live them all!

Friday, December 6, 2013

Falling Into Place


It seems things are falling into place lately and there has been one answer to prayer after another. It's funny how after praying for certain things that when those prayers are answered in a very clear and tangible way, it still seems surprising. Having faith as small as a mustard seed is not so easy.

Lots of encouraging things lately with my family, my work, and my business and most of them I never saw coming. A new chapter has definitely begun and it finally feels like life is really changing and moving forward again. I remember the things that put a smile on my face and now the fun begins. I'm learning so many new things right now and it's a great feeling. It's about time! Life has been foggy long enough.

I'm excited about the next few weeks and even about the new year. I can't wait to see what happens next!