Monday, December 23, 2013

It's Beginning to Look a Lot Like...

No time to write. You look at pictures. You look at pictures NOW!

Rose ignoring me.



A close-up of our tree.



This is nothing, you should see the house across the street.



From the front porch, with the neighbor's blinding display in the background.


Tuesday, December 17, 2013

Get Up

I've been reading through Corinthians lately and even though I skip around to completely different parts of scripture from one day to the next, it somehow always catches me by surprise when I keep running across passages that seem like they were written specifically to me. A couple of excerpts from my reading this morning:

We are hard pressed on every side, but not crushed; perplexed, but not in despair; persecuted, but not abandoned; struck down, but not destroyed. (2 Cor. 4:8, 9)

After reading that, I immediately think of a song. Do you know "Trading My Sorrows"? If you do, you're gonna have that stuck in your head for a while...

Therefore we do not lose heart. Though outwardly we are wasting away, yet inwardly we are being renewed day by day. For our light and momentary troubles are achieving for us an eternal glory that far outweighs them all. So we fix our eyes not on what is seen, but on what is unseen, since what is seen is temporary, but what is unseen is eternal. (2 Cor. 4:16–18)

Sometimes when I read passages like this, I start to wonder if they were written for me and then I realize that of course this was written for me. God speaks to us through scripture and makes His will known. He knows exactly what we need to hear, exactly when we need to hear it.

It brings to mind a poem that I used to read called "The Race." The words of this poem are also exactly what I needed to hear. And if you're here reading this blog, then you're meant to read this, too.

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“Quit! Give up! You’re beaten!” they shout at me, and plead. 

“There’s just too much against you now, this time you can’t succeed.”

And as I start to hang my head in front of failure’s face, 

My downward fall is broken by the memory of a race. 

And hope refills my weakened will, as I recall that scene, 

For just the thought of that short race rejuvenates my being.

They all lined up so full of hope, each thought to win that race. 

Or tie for first, or if not that, at least take second place. 

And fathers watched from off the side, each cheering for his son, 

And each boy hoped to show his dad, that he would be the one.

The whistle blew, and off they went, young hearts and hopes afire,

To win and be the hero there was each young boy’s desire.

And one boy in particular, whose dad was in the crowd, 

Was running near the head, and thought, “My dad will be so proud!”

But as he speeded down the field, across the shallow dip,
The little boy who thought to win lost his step and slipped.
Trying hard to catch himself, his arm flew out to brace,
And ‘mid the laughter of the crowd, he fell flat on his face.
So, down he fell, and with him, hope. He couldn’t win it now.
Embarrassed, sad, he only wished he’d disappear somehow.

But as he fell, his dad stood up, and showed his anxious face, 

Which to the boy so clearly said, “Get up and win the race.”

He quickly rose, no damage done, behind a bit, that’s all, 

And ran with all his mind and might to make up for his fall.

So anxious to restore himself, to catch up and to win,

His mind went faster than his legs; he slipped and fell again!

He wished then he had quit before with only one disgrace. 

“I’m hopeless as a runner now, I shouldn’t try to race.”

But in the laughing crowd he searched, and found his father’s face,

that steady look that said again, “Get up and win the race!”

So up he jumped to try again, ten yards behind the last, 

“If I’m to gain those yards,” he thought, “I’ve got to move real fast.”

Exceeding everything he had he gained back eight or ten, 

But trying so to catch the lead, he slipped and fell again.

Defeat! He lay there silently, a tear dropped from his eye. 

“There is no sense in running more. Three strikes, I’m out, why try?”

The will to rise had disappeared, all hope had fled away. 

So far behind, so error prone, a loser all the way.

“I’ve lost, so what’s the use,” he thought, “I’ll live with my disgrace.” 

But then he thought about his dad, who soon he’d have to face.

“Get up!” an echo sounded low, “Get up, and take your place. 

You were not meant for failure here, get up and win the race.”

“With borrowed will get up,” it said, “You have not lost at all.

For winning is no more than this: to rise each time you fall.”

So up he rose to run once more, and with a new commit, 

He resolved that win or lose, at least he wouldn’t quit.

So far behind the others now, the most he’d ever been, 

Still he gave it all he had, and ran as though to win.

Three times he’d fallen stumbling, three times he’d rose again, 

Too far behind to hope to win he still ran to the end. 

They cheered the winning runner, as he crossed the line first place.

Head high and proud and happy, no falling, no disgrace.

But when the fallen youngster crossed the finish line last place,

The crowd gave him the greater cheer for finishing the race.

And even though he came in last, with head bowed low, unproud, 

You would have thought he won the race to listen to the crowd.

And to his dad, he sadly said, “I didn’t do so well.”

“To me you won!” his father said, “You rose each time you fell.”

And when things seem dark and hard, and difficult to face,

The memory of that little boy helps me to win my race. 

For all of life is like that race, with ups and downs and all, 

And all you have to do to win is rise each time you fall.

“Quit! Give up! You’re beaten!” they still shout in my face. 

But another voice within me says: “GET UP AND WIN THE RACE!”

– D.H. Groberg

Monday, December 16, 2013

Huh?

I walked past the stairway on my way to the kitchen and saw a Barbie lying in a contorted heap on the floor at the foot of the steps. I paused and looked up and Emily was standing at the top of the stairs. "She fell," she said and her eyes narrowed as she stared me down. I walked quickly away, not wanting to acknowledge it. It's none of my business, right?

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Rose: "I asked my friend Charlotte what a TTY phone is, but I guess she didn't hear me."

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There's your funny for the day. You're welcome.

Wednesday, December 11, 2013

Hey, Look Where You're Going

It's funny how a sudden gust of cold wind, or an old building, the smell of smoke, the sunlight reflecting across the rooftops, the rattle of some dead leaves, the faint sound of a familiar tune drifting from a passing car, the taste when you bite your lip, the random sidewalk that detours around an old tree, passing the spot where a house used to be, seeing lights and shapes through dirty windows, or finding an old forgotten to-do list in your pocket can prompt a sudden rush of a million lights and sounds and memories of people and places and doors that you've walked through. All those fragments and sound bites become colored with age and each time you replay them they get a little bit better and take on a life of their own so that after a while those moments blend fact with fiction and you no longer know or care if your mind is taking creative liberties with the past. They become fond mental stories that get bigger and more nostalgic each time they are played back and for some reason they live out an elusive fairy-tale sort of existence... each time you reach out for them, they disappear like a puff of smoke. And yet when you aren't expecting them, there they are, waiting around the next corner.

Am I getting old? NO! Of course not. And when I'm 80 I'll still say the same thing. But I do believe that good memories are an important thing to hang onto and should be valued. Dwelling on them too much is a bad thing, but letting them happen across your path every now and then is good. You have to live in the present, but remembering the past and carrying some of the good things along – that in part make up who you are – is not a bad idea.


Here I go getting sentimental again, but isn't that the name of the blog, anyway? Every year around this time I start looking back and I see the good times and the bad, but I mostly try to remember the good. And as a new year gets closer, I look forward to all the great times it will bring and I can't wait to live them all!

Friday, December 6, 2013

Falling Into Place


It seems things are falling into place lately and there has been one answer to prayer after another. It's funny how after praying for certain things that when those prayers are answered in a very clear and tangible way, it still seems surprising. Having faith as small as a mustard seed is not so easy.

Lots of encouraging things lately with my family, my work, and my business and most of them I never saw coming. A new chapter has definitely begun and it finally feels like life is really changing and moving forward again. I remember the things that put a smile on my face and now the fun begins. I'm learning so many new things right now and it's a great feeling. It's about time! Life has been foggy long enough.

I'm excited about the next few weeks and even about the new year. I can't wait to see what happens next!

Friday, November 29, 2013

This Weekend

So far my Thanksgiving break has involved breaking into some stranger's garage and taking a Cadillac for a joyride (the keys were in the visor, ha!), freezing nearly to death while watching the stars out in the sticks somewhere, eating lots of great food, making fun of Michael Bolton, taking pictures, trying to fly a small plane, selling an old amp, and sleeping in. It's been fun!


this weekend, we'll have a ball,
we'll hit the town and see it all,
so let's go out on Friday night,
we'll go see a show, or get in a fight.

so hold on tightly to me,
we're going for a ride,
and the sound of the stereo,
let the rhythm,
let it take control of you,
'cause you ain't got nothing to lose.

it's nice enough for the driving,
watching movies with my friends,
times are good, and times are bad,
but these are the best times that I've ever had.

so hold on tightly to me,
we're going for a ride,
in the sound of the stereo,
let the rhythm,
let it take control of you,
don't say this isn't happening,
'cause you ain't got nothing to lose.

one of these days I'll be out of your way,
and you can rest your head...
one of these days I'll be out of your way,
and leave my words unsaid.

don't let, don't let, don't let go,
of the sound,
coming out your stereo,
let the rhythm,
let it take control of you,
don't say this isn't happening,
'cause this is your weekend,
and you ain't got nothing to lose.


:)

Thursday, November 21, 2013

Can I Do This?

Love must be sincere. Hate what is evil; cling to what is good. Be devoted to one another in love. Honor one another above yourselves. Never be lacking in zeal, but keep your spiritual fervor, serving the Lord. Be joyful in hope, patient in affliction, faithful in prayer. Share with the Lord's people who are in need. Practice hospitality.

Bless those who persecute you; bless and do not curse. Rejoice with those who rejoice; mourn with those who mourn. Live in harmony with one another. Do not be proud, but be willing to associate with people of low position. Do not be conceited.

Do not repay anyone evil for evil. Be careful to do what is right in the eyes of everyone. If it is possible, as far as it depends on you, live at peace with everyone. Do not take revenge, my dear friends, but leave room for God's wrath, for it is written: "It is mine to avenge; I will repay," says the Lord. On the contrary:
"If your enemy is hungry, feed him; if he is thirsty, give him something to drink. In doing this, you will heap burning coals on his head."
Do not be overcome by evil, but overcome evil with good.

– Romans 12:9-21
 

Monday, November 18, 2013

What a Difference a Day Makes

On November 18th:

  • William Tell shot an apple off of his son's head
  • Christopher Columbus discovered Puerto Rico
  • The five time zones were established in North America
  • Mickey Mouse's birthday and the day that the first cartoon with sound was released
  • The first book was printed on a printing press
  • The first teddy bear was made and named after Theodore Roosevelt
  • I was born sometime around 10am on a snowy day
I wonder if anything historic will happen this year... besides my birthday, that is.

Saturday, November 16, 2013

Last Fire

Last night we had what was probably the last fire of the year. We had some old dried out wood and some newer stuff and it really took off! Using dry leaves to get it started worked out well. I tried taking pictures, but even with a good fire going it was still too dark to get any clear shots.

Rose read us awful jokes and we roasted marshmallows and made faces for the camera. Only one of the funny face pictures turned out, but it was fun anyway.






Thursday, November 14, 2013

Jump!

At my new job I had to work nights, although I can't remember what it was that I did there, but I do know I carried around lots of cardboard boxes. My first night at work I realized I had forgotten my lunch, so I had nothing to eat when I took my break. There were a couple of dudes that I worked with who spoke Russian and they shared some of their food when they saw that I didn't have anything. It turns out they could speak English, too, although most of the time they spoke Russian and I had no idea what they were talking about.

From what I could make out, they were talking about a plane that they had sitting outside and they were going to go skydiving in the dark after work. It seemed the plan was that one of them would fly the plane while myself and the other dude jumped. They asked if I had ever jumped from a plane before and I said, "How do you think I got to work tonight?" They joked and thought I would scream like a girl if I jumped out of a plane, but said I would get a chance to prove myself later.

They laughed and I laughed too, and thanked them for the sandwich. I thought we were joking, but as soon as we clocked out after our shift they insisted that I follow them outside. They went back behind some trees and bushes and came out pushing a great big plane. They said they were not allowed to fly anymore after last time(?!!), so we would have to be quiet until we were ready to take off.

The other guy (who had a crazy grin and looked like Merle from The Walking Dead) who was going to be jumping threw a parachute at me and then started strapping on his own parachute, motioning for me to watch so I could put mine on. I put mine on, but when I was done, there were still a couple extra straps hanging loose from it. I held them up and asked how to put them on, but he just shrugged and climbed into the plane.

I was getting really cold feet about the whole thing and decided not to get in the plane. They were insistent and the dude with the parachute got out and grabbed onto one of the shoulder straps on my chute and started pulling me in. I decided to go along and watch, but no way was I going to jump.

The rickety old plane shuttered and shook and everything in it rattled. We taxied across the parking lot and then lifted off, brushing against tree branches as it started to climb.

It was really hot and muggy out and the side door of the plane was wide open letting in the humid air and thick exhaust. The plane circled the building where we worked as it climbed until it leveled off. We weren't very high up at all, but they said it couldn't go any higher.

The guy with the parachute stepped into the doorway and said that as soon as we jumped we would have to pull the rip cord right away since we didn't have any room to free fall. Well that was all the convincing I needed to decide that this wasn't happening for me. The guy flying the plane looked over his shoulder and saw that I wasn't going, so he turned the plane sharply to the right causing me to fall out of the doorway. I pulled the cord right away as I fell from the plane and I saw the other dude doing the same.

Our fall didn't last very long and in moments we were just clearing the trees, hoping to slow down enough before hitting the ground. He landed first and then I landed a couple seconds later and managed to stay on my feet. Right away, he began packing up the parachute and said that we had to leave before we got caught. I realized the plane was already on the ground(?!) and they were getting into their car to leave.

I drove home and found the driveway full of old broken down vans because people kept leaving their old discarded vans in our driveway every night.


There was more to this dream, but it was mostly about trying to figure out how to clear all the vans from the driveway and then a snowstorm came through while we were moving the vans.

Wednesday, November 13, 2013

Lunch Break in Photos

Today during my lunch break I took the camera with me and walked around the park near my office. I've actually been doing this a lot lately, but just haven't been posting them, so I decided I should post a few from today. Enjoy.




Thursday, November 7, 2013

An Arrow That Flies By Day

Whoever dwells in the shelter of the Most High will rest in the shadow of the Almighty.

I will say of the Lord, "He is my refuge and my fortress, my God, in whom I trust."

Surely he will save you from the fowler's snare and from the deadly pestilence.

He will cover you with his feathers and under his wings you will find refuge; his faithfulness will be your shield and rampart.

You will not fear the terror of the night, nor the arrow that flies by day, nor the pestilence that stalks in the darkness, nor the plague that destroys at midday.

A thousand may fall at your side, ten thousand at your right hand, but it will not come near you.

You will only observe with your eyes and see the punishment of the wicked.

If you say, "The Lord is my refuge," and you make the Most High your dwelling, no harm will overtake you, no disaster will come near your tent.

For he will command his angels concerning you to guard you in all your ways; they will lift you up in their hands, so that you will not strike your foot against a stone.

You will tread on the lion and the cobra; you will trample the great lion and the serpent.

"Because he loves me," says the Lord, "I will rescue him; I will protect him, for he acknowledges my name.

He will call on me, and I will answer him; I will be with him in trouble, I will deliver him and honor him.

With long life I will satisfy him and show him my salvation."

– Psalm 91

Thursday, October 31, 2013

Happy Halloween!

It was a dark and rainy night... That's how it's supposed to be, right? Well then we have nothing to complain about. We went trick or treating tonight around the neighborhood and I took lots of pictures. I didn't use flash because I hate using flash, so that means using a really slow shutter speed which means the pictures turned out a tad fuzzy. EVERY. SINGLE. ONE. But that's OK, because we had fun anyway and if you don't like it, THEN YOU CAN TAKE YOUR HAPPY HALLOWEEN AND GO SOMEWHERE ELSE.

I didn't mean it like that. I just don't like it when my photos end up looking a little fuzzy and then I start wondering what kind of photographer takes lousy, blurry photos? They're snapshots, that's all. Just for fun. Taken on a camera that is meant for more than that.

Anyway, here they are:





So Emily was a witch (wearing a white jacket for warmth as witches often do), and Rose was Mavis from Hotel Transylvania.








My neighbors across the street. This is what we see from our house. They know how to observe Halloween:


Roxi even gave us a plate of cookies and cupcakes!


Scary Rose (I'm not sure what's going on with her eyes in this one, but I did not do that):


And Scary Emily:


And our scary pumpkins: